I really don’t ever have anything to look forward to.

Given the trajectory of my life/career/whatever, I’m not sure how to change that or when it would be realistic to expect change.  I just work. I’m always working. I finish one thing only to find myself already behind on something else.  If I “take time off” it’s ruined, I can’t relax, because I’m preoccupied/weighed down with the knowledge that while I”m not working on the to-do list, it’s getting longer, things aren’t getting done, and when I return to it, it’s going to be even worse than when I left it.

It pretty much sucks.

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